Being Alone

It’s still all new to me, looking back on the last date I post a blog, you would have guess I have been MIA.

I didn’t go MIA, I just wasn’t alone. Someone was there for me, to care, to love and to cherish every moment that was with me.

I am hopeless when comes to decision making, I can’t be decisive enough and often I make mistakes because of this. I just have this tidak – apa attitude where I cant be bothered much what is happening around me and what other people think and care about me. All I cared was just her, all I wanted is she.

It all started back at September, when my house was on Fire, and that was when I had to handle everything myself. From cleaning, finding a place for me and my sis to stay, practically A to Z . Or maybe more. And that is when I did a fatal mistake, which caused someone to suffer it till forever.

I admit that I was really stupid at that time at that moment. I was just NOT sensitive enough, it was just me, the stupid me. Tears flowed that night; even the i felt that the rain and thunder god was around, yet it was too late.

I regretted my action till today. I pledge for forgiveness. I practically beg at one stage. There was no dignity at all. But for HER, what the hell, it was worthwhile.

Times Flies, its several months since that chapter happen, just when i thought i can put my dreadful past behind, it had came back to haunt me and hurt her badly. You know who you are. It wasnt fair to her, and she didnt deserve that, but what is done is done. If time can be traded with life span, i will trade mine to rectify my mistake. Reality is, i cant. I am truly Sorry, again, for whoever i hurt last time. I truly am.


So, now im alone, what's Next?