Joy, Sorrow, Dissappointment
Been past a day when u had everything planned out but cant enjoy it?
Ever wonder why must there be joy, but a shortlived one, and comes with it are sorrows and disappointment?
I had one, and it was a memorable one, It was a really bad memory i will like to erase, i would like to forget..
Looking back.......
In a few more days, Chinese New Year is approaching, i have a friend who is coming back from singapore, a friend i haven seen for years.. I planned to give my friend a lift, then i could even enjoy CNY happily, made so much plans, wanted to enjoy it to the fullest because my exam was before the CNY, after that i could enjoy it till the max!
As i was studying, getting ready to Enjoy after the exam, i received a text, My grandma passed away. Omigod. I was dumbstruck, everything went blank at this moment. My Joy was shortlived. i was sorrow, yet disappointed.. She was my favourite grandma. I love her. But god loves her more. Then i think again, omigod. All my plans. I have to choose... But in real fact, i dont need to chooose, because it was my grandma, i had to go. Maybe for other's, is the relatives, but reality is, if parents are going, all other family members will be expected there as well. Unless they are not in town...
My feelings was terrible for the next few days. My Happiness was all gone. I didnt want to miss any part of the celebration, plans made, and etc etc. I was moody. But i knew i have to accept the fact that i will have to go and see her for the last time. the VERY last time. I have to forego all my plans, my celebration, and i wont even get to see my friend at all!
I must admit, it did not digest well in me. But i did not blame her, i knew i will have to give my respect. I could go and celebrate later. Maybe not as hype as the exact day. But at least *celebrate* it. However, i still did not celebrate it. I accepted the fact that i will have to wait another year..
Gosh, looking back, I hope that i would not have to made one of those decision anymore. And to those who yet to face or facing this situation, I could just say one thing, it is your choice. Whatever happens, look at the bright side. I'm sure that everything gonna be all right... Cant always have things going on our will, can we?
R.I.P Grandma. Love you always
Ever wonder why must there be joy, but a shortlived one, and comes with it are sorrows and disappointment?
I had one, and it was a memorable one, It was a really bad memory i will like to erase, i would like to forget..
Looking back.......
In a few more days, Chinese New Year is approaching, i have a friend who is coming back from singapore, a friend i haven seen for years.. I planned to give my friend a lift, then i could even enjoy CNY happily, made so much plans, wanted to enjoy it to the fullest because my exam was before the CNY, after that i could enjoy it till the max!
As i was studying, getting ready to Enjoy after the exam, i received a text, My grandma passed away. Omigod. I was dumbstruck, everything went blank at this moment. My Joy was shortlived. i was sorrow, yet disappointed.. She was my favourite grandma. I love her. But god loves her more. Then i think again, omigod. All my plans. I have to choose... But in real fact, i dont need to chooose, because it was my grandma, i had to go. Maybe for other's, is the relatives, but reality is, if parents are going, all other family members will be expected there as well. Unless they are not in town...
My feelings was terrible for the next few days. My Happiness was all gone. I didnt want to miss any part of the celebration, plans made, and etc etc. I was moody. But i knew i have to accept the fact that i will have to go and see her for the last time. the VERY last time. I have to forego all my plans, my celebration, and i wont even get to see my friend at all!
I must admit, it did not digest well in me. But i did not blame her, i knew i will have to give my respect. I could go and celebrate later. Maybe not as hype as the exact day. But at least *celebrate* it. However, i still did not celebrate it. I accepted the fact that i will have to wait another year..
Gosh, looking back, I hope that i would not have to made one of those decision anymore. And to those who yet to face or facing this situation, I could just say one thing, it is your choice. Whatever happens, look at the bright side. I'm sure that everything gonna be all right... Cant always have things going on our will, can we?
R.I.P Grandma. Love you always
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10:51 PM
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