Afraid

After a conversation today... i felt that i'm starting to change...

Every words that comes out from my mouth, its becoming more stinging. Every terms i use, i applied harshness and full of sarcasm.

I really do not know what and how it happened. They say everything happens for a reason. But i cant find a reason for this change. I really do not want to remember what they said to me. The miao man and team. Hahaha......

I cant sleep again, the insomia is getting back to me after i recovered from my bad cough,. flu and fever that lasted for nearly a week. I hope it doesnt come looking for me again.. because i really do not want to welcome him.

With every sentence that i blurted out during the 1 hour conversation. Nothing but stinging words and sarcasm. Nothing was left.

The most horrible part that i could think of is, if i go on like this, i will be afraid of myself.