Frustrated.

Today, I got really frustrated.

I started looking back, and realize, something where i didnt put effort, just worked out the way i didnt want it to be. Which is kind of lucky, but i didnt know how to appreciate it. Because i didnt want it that way.

Then i look at those where i made a stand, made an effort, It all didnt work out. It all work the other way out. And i got frustrated. Just stand there and whoever come close me can be ready for a fight if i were to be provoked even with a single poke.

I just couldnt understand why am i at this particular position now. I didnt want it. I didnt ask for it. I strive for a different position.  But i really couldnt understand why am i here. They say it takes a lot of patience for something to work out. But as a normal human being, im more of a "rush" person. I couldnt wait. I just wanted it to be done asap.

Then i  just decided to sit down. Let out a big Sigh..... SIGH............. life just have to go on. I just have to find a way. Im getting old. dammit.