WRONG place, WRONG time

Have you ever thought, what if i did not do this, what if i do that?

What if i am at the right place, What if i am at the right time?

What if its like that, What if .....

There is a lot of times where people wonder if ever their action or words shown
are at the right time and right place. Often, it goes vice-versa. It is not perfect, unless,
of course, you have six sense.

I have been through stages like this before, till today i still find it hard to get it off my mind
after i have done something wrong. I always wonder, What should i have done, If i would
have do this, will it not happen? What am i always at the wrong place at a wrong time. Why
am i always the victim of saying things at the wrong time?

I understand that my queries will never be answered, and it often tortures my brain into
unnecessary vibration that causes me to age faster than usual. I always have to eat back my words, often, deny what I've said before.

I am confused, sad, emotionally disrupted on the current situation, but i am a patient man, i often wait, often doesn't give up until the end of time. I wait, truly from the bottom of my heart.

Here i am, 3 am in the morning, pondering, will i ever get to be at the right place and the right
time?