Boring thoughts.

I do not feel like writing thoughts today.

I am a person who hardly says No. and a person who always try to be nice even though i know i am on
the losing end. Always. And it always end up with results that i feel unsatisfied.

I think, sometimes i really pay respect to my male counterparts who can really be very *Jue Qing* or cold heart-ed. Not a chance given. Straight to the point. I cant. I often prefer it to end on a very nice conclusion or at least good will.

Girls especially, are the most cold heart-ed. If no chance, means no chance, trying might not be an option. for this generation, presumably, not all. but most i guess. i think it is the same for guys as well. but comparatively.  i think girls will have a slight edge on it.

I do not know how to be jue qing/cold heart-ed, even tho i will really love to practice it on some1 else one day ( even tho i know it is nearly impossible ).  It is just not my style. But i am afraid that it will bring trouble to myself. The thing i always believe, trust and being persistent, is it worth it? the thing i do, even tho i dare to  chase again what i wish, what i want, will i dare to own it? What if, i do not want to be like this anymore?

Sighhh...........

Finally, What i do, believe and own yesterday, will always be a memory to me. N for what i want to have tomorrow, let it come with the wind. I will just accept the way it is.

Thoughts

- Damm tired...... i wanna sleep...
- Running Nose... Waterfall starts after rainy days........
- I no appetite.. ulcer ulcer ulcer go away.. dont ever come back to me!!!!
- Stupid Mosquito!! stop flying around lar!!!!! KNS......... i wanna sleep de still fly here fly there.. buat
kacau! I kill u say i evil, dont kill you, say i dont know how appreciate....zz

Thoughts

- Now, am i fit enough to be a a medical and financial advisor?
- This will be a challenge. A real Challenge...

My Thoughts Today

- tired!
- Surprise by a garbage truck went i took my first deep breath in the morning!! Ptui Ptui Ptui!!
- Stomach Ache ....Pain.. Pain.. Pain...
- Started not feeling well....
- Went Bangsar Twice! Omigodsh.....
- Back to where i started....
- Now. i think i need a break.. Jialat.. Jialat..

Thoughts

- Dam, Sales is sure Hard
- Possibilities of returning where you came from? = 0. Not a chance at all. Because
other people would have jump in on the space u left.
- M gonna start playing the numbers game and hoped i will survive....
- Regret is the worst pill that one have to swallow and digest it.
- Chang Chang said that planning is better than not planning. But what i plan always turn out the otherwise. which was one of the reason i hated planinng. But i knew i still had to at one point. and how i always hope that it will turn out the way i want it.
- Preserverance is the Key to everything...

Thoughts...

Confused...
Seems like all my decision isn't taking me anywhere...
Traffic Jam... Cant Malaysia be a better place to drive around instead of getting stuck for 1 whole hour just to get from PJ to PJ... dammit
Laugh Laugh at crazy jokes.... hahaha...
Excited!!  Saw a meeeeeeeaaaaaaaan Machine!~!
Back to Confused...Jeez!

Thoughts...

I probably think i should stop writing. Even though how much i alway feel like bullshitting.

Im turning this blog into the Thoughts Blog, instead of elaborating on what i do. i should just make it like a facebook wannabe blog. Just thoughts.

Starts.. Right Now.

I missed my lunch thanks to some friend who ate at home.
I hope my running nose stop flowing.
I cant believe i watch a hongkong series for 5 hours straight. Its addictive!
Minyak Cap Kapak Is my beeest friend now....

Planning.

Throughout my life. I have tried to plan. Till i gave it up 7 years ago. Because i think there is no point planning. It is not gonna work. i will just go with the flow and work with the flow.

After 7 years, here i am. I did involve myself in some planning during the years i was working, it was inevitable that i have to plan. Plan on earning my first million, my own business.

When i first came out to the society to work, i did door to door sales. The job lasts me for a year. I got into an argument with the Manager and decides to leave. I left to Etiqa.

I was doing corporate insurance when i was in Etiqa. A 9-5 job. but with flexi time. They offered me quite a good remuneration package even tho the others was not as attractive. I was with them for 3 years, then came the bad news, i wasnt getting very well with some1, so i thought so. And an opportunity came up to realise my dream. I jumped on it. I gave the excuse of i wish to have my own business, but it was actually more of an internal factor that drove me to the edge of the cliff.

I came out, and got involve into a daily business. it was a franchise business, as they say, it is always rossy when u start off. And yes, i agree to it. Now, 8 months down the road. Life is enriching enough, i did a few things when i was on my own. I had all the time i needed, i instructed people, designed a system, and got it running without me going hands on for long. However, i realize one thing, it wasnt going anywhere with this business...

I got frustrated. I told my partner that i will go back to work and start searching for opportunity again, we cant keep sharing the profit of the current business and it is not expanding. So, then I started planning again. What will be my next step and my next step should be crucial for my next quarter of half of my life. What do i wan, what is my wish. and where do i see myself in 10 years. I need a career, a one that i can be happy and content with.

I plan again. And now the plan is very clear in my mind. All i need to do is to implement it. And i have a wish, i hope the one up there hears me out and make it come true. Then at least the first step is layed. I sincerely hope it comes true. Then my other ideas will fall into the way i want it and from there. I will hope to blossom.