Joy, Sorrow, Dissappointment

Been past a day when u had everything planned out but cant enjoy it?

Ever wonder why must there be joy, but a shortlived one, and comes with it are sorrows and disappointment?

I had one, and it was a memorable one, It was a really bad memory i will like to erase, i would like to forget..

Looking back.......

In a few more days, Chinese New Year is approaching, i have a friend who is coming back from singapore, a friend i haven seen for years.. I planned to give my friend a lift, then i could even enjoy CNY happily, made so much plans, wanted to enjoy it to the fullest because my exam was before the CNY, after that i could enjoy it till the max!

As i was studying, getting ready to Enjoy after the exam, i received a text, My grandma passed away. Omigod. I was dumbstruck, everything went blank at this moment. My Joy was shortlived. i was sorrow, yet disappointed.. She was my favourite grandma. I love her. But god loves her more. Then i think again, omigod. All my plans. I have to choose... But in real fact, i dont need to chooose, because it was my grandma, i had to go. Maybe for other's, is the relatives, but reality is, if parents are going, all other family members will be expected there as well. Unless they are not in town...


My feelings was terrible for the next few days. My Happiness was all gone. I didnt want to miss any part of the celebration, plans made, and etc etc. I was moody. But i knew i have to accept the fact that i will have to go and see her for the last time. the VERY last time. I have to forego all my plans, my celebration, and i wont even get to see my friend at all!

I must admit, it did not digest well in me. But i did not blame her, i knew i will have to give my respect. I could go and celebrate later. Maybe not as hype as the exact day. But at least *celebrate* it. However, i still did not celebrate it. I accepted the fact that i will have to wait another year..

Gosh, looking back, I hope that i would not have to made one of those decision anymore. And to those who yet to face or facing this situation, I could just say one thing, it is your choice. Whatever happens, look at the bright side. I'm sure that everything gonna be all right... Cant always have things going on our will, can we?

R.I.P Grandma. Love you always

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Time to turn in....

its already 3.20 am liaoz...

Finally starting to get tired....

Found a Long Long Lost Picture....

Relax

Sometimes, we just wonder, when is the right time to relax, to go on holidays. We always plan ahead, but we always find ourself in a tough situation that we think that it is not the right time to go when the date approaches.

I watched a movie, they said, Just relax, and let your mind go blank. I think not all people are able to do that. I fall into that category, no matter how much i want my mind to go blank, i cant, unless i fall asleep.. which i'm glad that i'm always able to do it with not much problem.

Now i am unable to fall asleep, just came back from a wedding dinner, looking everyone change so much, looking back when i was much naive, memories flowing back in, those days were like dream, now its true world. Accepting whatever is ahead, whatever left behind is best forgotten, we can only appreciate what has happen and not always condemning the past.

Time to chiillll... relax.... or everything will never end..

Tried to do some Gymnastic, but my shoulder ache really badly after that.. sob...

Relax..... i love this tree house....

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This is one movie that it should be watch in the cinema's on not on DVD !

James Cameron is one hell of a director, after 12 years of his last successful movie (titanic), this is another *epic movie* .... All Clap Clap!

I don't think i will write any review's i believe there is so many written outside and with a click of mouse you can get it out straight!

Before i go,

Ladies and gentlemen, when you step in the cinema, You are not on earth anymore, You are in PANDORA.

Chilling Time....

Kanasai!!!!!

Fucking PIece of SHit!!! Fuck Fuck Fuck Yourself ten thousand times upside down and down upside!!!

Bah!! Niasing ah... petpet.... niama....

Kaniabucibai...
GRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...........

Mahai ah.. typing still cant release the fire inside my heart.. i think i have to find a sacrificer for me to punch bite or even murder,..........

Aussie Trip ( 3rd DaY! )

Lalala.... Time to update the last few days of my Trippie in Aussie!!

The process... Breakfast - Lancelin - Pinnacles - Night Out!

Yawn... Waking up in the morning to cook is a drag.... haha... but today i will be the one in the kitchen cooking.. of course with my Er yi to assist me..hhahaha... simple simple dish.. one of my favourite dish as well....

The picture illustrates all....


Fried Rice With Bacon and Egg!! the Ah Kheng Specialty...
It tastes pretty well i will say.. we even brought the fried Rice out for lunch.

At lancelin.. Surf Board On Sand.. Tsk Tsk... its call sand boarding..
Cant Imagine the first time Im gonna surf is on Hot Sand... Gosh.....

Hahha... look at my hand gestures, This bastard hasnt been here before!
And we just suffered from his smart idea to drive his car in to the sand area. Tragedy! We have to push the Car out as it was stuck in the Sand~!!!
Sand Boarding!! This picture was a miracle.. sliding down the slope and
taking this picture with a normal camera was a torture, Keep NG!

Chilling Out with the Free Water... Believed it was Filtered and safe... Hopefully...

This picture is taken at the Pinnacles...Manage to find a stone which is *special* because i can hug it... If not i wouldn't have taken picture with it... After this was back for Chinese Dinner... YUmmie!! Then its for a Big Night Plan Out!

Striptease Bar.. hahaha... they say all tourist often do what i do.. which is take a picture with the Big Signboard! U can see from my right there is a Guai Lou..hahaha.. but i do not know what is she doing there at the moment.....

The Whole NorthBridge Mappie.. you wont get lose here.. very simple instruction to move around... Damm.. i think i'm getting in love with the City...

Hehehe... They can this THE *massage Parlour*... hahaha... All i did was just went in for a short tour and out i go.. :P

Third Day Pass too Soon...

Old Folks Home

I had a chat with my daddy yesterday, and we were discussing about old age....

He told me, those days, when parents get old, they will either stay with their children, or by themselves( if they are financially sound enough to), a minority will be send to old folks home. He even added, those who went to the old folks home, are often those that will pass on faster.. Reason

a) Their kids complain that they are troublesome.
b) Cant get along with the other half.
c) Lonely

and more....

However, i made a vow,


Daddy, U will never be going there. I assure you that,
For me.

Family First.

Others can come Second.

Happy Days are past.....

Im Happy!

Now Im not!

Im Happy For so many People~ But Im unhappy at myself..

They say trials bring results.. But they did not say good or bad result.

Now im here. in kampar. i do not know whether to say im glad that im here or im glad that i left everything behind and left with no goal ahead.

I made a promise, I will leave the my last job after 3 years, i did. I promised myself, i have to start something on my on. I did. I made other promises as well. But i think it will not come true anymore .

Now.. Im Happy!! for the last 5 seconds, that is because i read a joke online. haha.. stupid jokes stupid stupid jokes!!

How i wish that i will go back to to a baby, facing the world knowing no evil, no struggle, no fighting, everything is just pure, what a wonderful world to come to....

Road Taken..

Moving ON....Finally, after so long.. slowly i will try to put all into the memories box i will always treasure...

Now this road that i'm taking is full of twists and turns, My change of turning my dreams into reality... So many barriers ahead, sometimes i just feel like giving up and leave everything behind.

Where am i now? Where do I stand ?
I thought of not pulling anyone to suffer with me. Giving up for the better.
The thought of going back after I'm successful always linger in my mind.

Now that it will not happen anymore,

I'll will move on, friends and family will guide me along, i will survive this storm,
I'll always hold on to my hope and walk down this road with my head held high.

Taking a step at a time is all right,
Most important is that my burning passion drive is still hot.
Looking back I've come so far and I want to carry on

I want to smile again.
Be the person i always use to be.