Sword as a whole

As a warrior, never play with your sword... only use it when you are in the battle field.

As a writer, your pen is your sword, it does what u wish and what you want..

As a badminton player, your racquet is your sword.. without it, ur useless... BUT do not do not...
swing it for no reason..

Because i just played with my sword, and i accidentally swing it in an awkward direction and whack myself in the ear......
OUCH. it hurts...

I feel so lame. Ciaoz peeps

Shutting myself up and out

I think i talk to much.

Im gonna shut up.

I think i'm over doing things .

Im gonna shut myself out.

Therefore. Im shutting myself up and out.

*silence*

Ever Wonder

Ever Wonder

Why this world is so unfair?
When you have something in your mind & you cant say it out?
You have feelings for somebody and you feel shy to put say?
You wanna go against your boss and but you are hold back due to some obligations?
Why is things never go your way?
Why people are always better than you?
Why are you not appreciated more than other people?


BUT! Have you ever wonder,

Why is the world so beautiful today?
You spoke your mind and other people agreed on what you said? ( Nodding not counted )
You confess and the other party have the same feelings? ( if doesnt then obviously it gonna hurt tho)
You shared and have a mutual understanding of each other? ( if doesnt then its gonna be either you or boss will be considering a move )
Everything is so smooth it seems life is so perfect?
Why am i so lucky compare to other people?

Lastly,

You should always feel appreciated.. for who you are and what you are.
Come, after you are done thinking, let me buy a drink.

Raining!!!!!

As i was writing and writing.. It suddenly rained!!! I think the god is telling me to clean up my mind and go to bed. Stop all the bullshitting that what im doing here....hahahaha

I tried to take a picture of it.. but since its in the wee hours ... its all dark. Pitch black in my camera.. anyway..

Substitution for a picture...

This is the picture from my office view... well, im sorry about the glare. But its still considered under the category of *raining*...hehe

Lastly.. Its gonna really be a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong night...

Late Night

People always say do not sleep late.. sleep early and rise early..

I do not know why... i m terrible wrong these days... i can stay awake till 4 or 5 and i still dont feel sleepy. i think more these days. I always have something on my mind.. which is really really dangerous... I just came back after a meeting with some friends.. these friends are really taukeh, wanna mix around and understand more about the working world and maybe we could strike something out next time.. Right? hahaha.. that is what im thinking.. but it doesnt happen, im fine with it. Like they say, its not how much the time or value you put in.. its the company or companion that you treasure.

Im not asleep now. I do not know what time i will be asleeep.. i have an appointment tmr.. An opportunity i must say. Also, now that im losing interest on my current job where i cant find any job satisfaction, its really gonna be soon before i decides to leave the company. But till then, i willl still work hard, because what comes around goes around... u dont work hard now, mayb next time ur employee may have the same habit.. and it is something i do not wish to.

My blog is always full of words. I rarely post any pictures. I still have a lot of things to spill out .. but i do not want to. I do not feel like it. I probably will just keep it in the space in my heart till it rot and forgotten.. which i always do.. but i know its inevitable that it will sure surface no matter how much i try to cover it...

Hiahz... any ow. some stupid pictures which i have taken long time but did not post it up..


READY TO GO!! the KHENG SIFU IS HERE!!!

PORK BELLY SOUP... one of my favourite....

( a real thorough cleaning up is needed be4 boiling... )

Another light sleeping night...

Money...

为了你而活！

为了你而活！

Food ....

有了你才活！

有了你才活！

Proud Kheng Family

Im so dead tired after a day.. I didnt have my dinner when i reach home.
I was so exhausted that i fall asleep straight away. Woke up and went for an appointment.
I only reach home at 12.30. I ask for a bowl of maggi mee....

She... , my sister, is the proud production of the Kheng Family...


I wish her all the best and hereby thank her so much for the maggi mee that keeps me awake till now to complete my assignment.

Im Hungry

Its now 3.45. My last meal was at 11.00 .. 4 hours.. Its time that i should be hungry....
How i hope...

This would appear.....




Yum Yum.....

This as side dish... and Finally...

This in the morning when i wake up... whoo hoo hoooo hoooooo.... this is gonna make me such a happy man.....

Time's Up! Sleeping time.... ;( there goes my dream of nice food..

Speelling B...

Azizi = 阿鸡鸡 Means Small Chicken!! :P
Ahmad = 阿马 Means A Horse...

Aziani = 爱在你 I think this one is quite sweet.. means loving you.
Siti = 洗地 This is awful. Means Washing the floor

Zaini = 载你 Common.. Means Fetching You
Nisa = 泥沙 This is silly. Means Sand.

Samsudin = 山树顶 Haha.. unique. Means top of the mountain tree...

Im bored, and i m in a very terrible terrible mood at this moment. I cant sleep. Im thinking of someone. Im doing nothing. and again. Im bored

Awful

I was running through some of the picture my friends gave it to me looooooong looooong time ago..

And i was wondering.. How much did i change since then ? i found one very nice picture...


OH SHIT, i was really a sucker that time.. this is awful.

Good Night

Long Day.

Class, Study, Appointments

3 birthday Party to attend, one invitation which i ffk, and cousin brother in down.

All in a day. Made it to 2 party. Did not made the others.

Choices made. Decision made. Consequences all taken in.

Busy and Long Long Pack Day. And im not asleep yet.

Good night.

im CRAZY!

So i said yes to michelle lim siew kheng, i said all right. i will help you out on your mission.
What to do, she is one of best friends man.. since primary, secondary and even Uni...

We met up yesterday... she said lets have dim sum this morning, the bf will come and pick us up. So i said.. O righT!!! i haven had dim sum for quite a while as well.... so i was pretty exicted lar.. maybe she was going to buy us breakfast? U'll never know...hahahaha....

So i was DISTURBED by a phone call at 9, she called and woke me up to get ready.. i went downstairs, washed up and waiting for her.. she didnt arrive, and i fall asleep in the halll, on my favourite ice cold marble tiling floor... sweet.. until 11... gosh, i didnt ask why was she late, but i know my dim sum is not going to come through.. everythin will be in a rush.... We had McD...

Then we head to the office to do the play, director making noise de,..hahaha.. have to do everythiing perfect.. but was a little dissappointed cause of something.. but what to do.. Well,
everything went quite well, and we even had william mom dropping in to visit his son! hahaha.....

Then i have to leave to go back early.. i have a competition to play in cheras.. it has been continuous 3 days... as we have been postponing it.. so we have to play 3 days in a row.. gosh... but today was EAAAAASSSYyyy... 95-49.. owning!! hahaha.. but it was awful on the beginning.. it was suppose to start at 6.15.. but stupid refereee only arrive at 7.. really no use... damm it lar.. but lucky they didnt arrive at 8.. what to do..hahahaha

Then we were treated by our manager ... Dinner was Yong Tao Foo!! hahahah... 4 types of taofuu.. each 40 piece!! crazy!! a pity that i cant get the picture.. and we finished it!! guess we were really too hungry.... now i feel like vomitting.. no yong tao foo for me at least 1 month.. Buuuurrrrrrppp!!!!

NOw im home.. gosh.. whole day gone.. especially for competition.. a 1 hour match can take away at least 3 hours... 1 hour to go, 1 hour to play and 1 hour to come back.... jeez.. but whawt to do.. passion. interest.

now, lets have a camworrying picture down here!! i think my eyes is green.. ekekeke

All Time Low

My self confidence, self esteem.. have been plunging and plunging.. just like what the credit crunch did to the world.

I cant seem to find where i stand, where i belong, what i should do, how should i react and counting counting counting on and on and on....

i do not dare to try, or even try at anything at all.... im just afraid that it will not turn out the way
it shud be and i will up for another downfall.

i hope god will guide me. but being a free thinker.. i think he might not be able to lend a hand..

i do not know where should i seek guidance. i only know how to complain and let it run in my mind.

The season is here. whatever characteristic i have, its all time low. Time to Crash it. Either it will recover, or it never will....

Hectic Hectic.

First, i have an exam coming up.

So, i have to study. But i didnt.. so i burn the midnight oil. and i didnt sleep for 1 night.. i did try to catch a whinker.. which i succeeded, but it wasnt enough.

I woke up, went and sit for my exam, and my hectic schedule starts.......
Home, bath, and out again , then i went to help my primary school,secondary school and uni school friend on her * assignment * ... and im so sorry because i didnt get to talk and i actually fall asleep.. and till now i still feel very bad.

then i rush back. over slept and have to rush to cheras for my competition. it will be consecutive 3 days of competition as we postpone too much. and its taking a toll on me. Lucky that it wasnt jam and i was able to reach there RIGHT on time.

i came back. went yum cha with my primary school friends.. home. tried to sleep. failed attempt.
Tried again. 2nd failed attempt.

I gave up, therefore, im here.
i feel old. and i think i am.

Old

I think i m catching up with age.

I think im starting to aged.

I think im aging.

Damm. i think im old.

Surprises? Luck?

Nice Surprises is good isnt it? and everyone love surprises...

What if its a bad one. A one that u need to consider your option and makes ur own decision?

nobody likes that, nobody do, they will never know whether the decision is correct or wrong, they only understand that they need to make that * crucial * decision. Horrible.

Well, it is always hard to believe if you have one of *those* days, it just come uninvited. It might affect you in any aspect. BUT! dont ever lose your heart, ur heart will tell you what will the best solution, the best, but may not be the right one.

When u make that decision, you might think twice, or thrice, more more. Remember think of the past, what happen, what is the consent u made that decision. It is always easier looking back in the past than in the future.

WEll, no matter what life lands you, believe in yourself. Remember, confident often plays a very important part in your life. IF you self doubt, you might never find a way out of it. Everyone will come across the path of an eventful or deadly surprises, but then, human beings is still human beings, nobody is always right, even succesful people stumbles and fail before.

Lastly, bad luck happen, but then, what comes around goes around.. after the bad one, look forward to the good one. and trust me, it doesnt come only once. Like they say. The good ones always exist and they will stay for a really loooong time.

Good Luck.

Hangover in the office

So, Trouble.

i think im getting the sickness of being in the office. I cant seem to finish cleaning up the mess,
Closings, premiums, claims, claims premiums and etc etc.. all paper work. But then again, i get to do marketing, going out is an consolation for me and im really thankful that Fukhai and Zetty which is my boss took me in, without them, i wouldnt be anywhere i am now.

BUT,

Im getting really tired these days, and i do not know where i can get the tiredness of my head. Im tired of everything that is on my path now. The future seems bright to me when i started out, then it went dim, now it looks really dark. And im starting to be afraid. Im afraid of myself, afraid of losing it and afraid that i cant achieve what im suppose to be achieving.

I strive for the best, i want to be the best. I always put effort in things i do, i do not try, i do it. But sometimes, there is so much constraints and roadblocks that puts of my chase, my pursuit, my goal, most importantly, my dream.

Sometimes i do not feel like an adult, i felt like a kid, a kid who doesnt get what he wishes, a kid who wishes for something but will never get it. But as a kid, u forget about it and move on. As an adult, you think about it, and it linger around your mind. U talk about it, but u never will get to forget it, due to the fact that you are a grown up and should learn from each failure that you wen through.

I am feeling so lost now. I do not know what i want in life anymore. I just have one motto. Die Rich or Die trying.

But now, im Half Dead. With no particular explanation or reason. And its sad.