What do u use your resources for?

Me ?

Family,
Then Friends

Simply put it that way, but sometimes people just dont appreciate it. Then they start complaining they dont get this, all they can tell is sorry la. i plan it, but it didnt turn out the way i want it. Im just too busy.

I think Time is how u manage it, how much i am wasting my time, i know how am i getting on with it. I'm unfortunate to tell myself that i am pretty much in time management and being focus. Because i wnat everything, and i think that is one of the reason that i dont get to do what i want. Not mentioning now that i have to start taking supplments to replenish. Jeez. /

I should settle down, and work towards what i really want., but i dont seem to be able to stop at one place. i need someone, or somebody to tell that to me or tell me to be there.. someone i find special, be it m/fm. but at this particular point i dont see yet. I hope there will be where i will take everything said to heart.

I had a fairly reasonable day today. A rainy day, travelled to JURU, made some new friends, and came back to the PGH branch. Time flies, now i understand, what does it be like a family man even tho i am not married . All i do is i go to work, then buy my own dinner and head back to the hotel. Eat myself, switch on the tv and radio and have my lappie tuned up for me to write and log in to see what is happening in the world.

Life is not fully lived my dear boy. I need to do better.

4 Pillows, 2 TV, and a King Size Bed

If anyone could just understand how i feel now.

I have nothing much to write today. Its all up there. All in 1 title.

4 Pillows, 2 TV, and a King Size Bed.

27/03/2011

Time is Short.

Really Short. And i want everything fast. Maybe too fast. Maybe im demanding,

I m trying to build, and i really hope i build an empire one day. See Me Go.....

Effort to boost memory power..

I have to something now that I know my own condition, gonn have to constantly involve myself in activities to keep my big fat brAin awake !!!

So now, I'm at a treasure hunt!!! Hahaha virgin hunt !!! Then again , I only qualify to be the navigatOr fOr now, who cares really? Hunting time!!!

Biggest fear prove right...i

Now, i have been so occupied with my new post tat I really didn't have sometime to pen down a few things that R happening on me....

Nevertheless, judging on wat is happening on me, i decided to go to the Chinese medical to check whether I M reAlly suffering from memory lapse...

I AM

Fuck, well, all I can be console about is that he says Tat luckily I realize it fast before it gets out of control.... I was prescribe some medicine, apparently I was overusing the brain... Hmmmmm mu ahahaha I am???

Well, next thing I can do .. Is to keep reminding myself to not to use so much of my brain juice!! Aloha mr. Kheng!!!

The worst enemy is always yourself, I guess now, time to face my worst sworn enemy inside the big fat brain of mine....

aiyo

Susah la jadi orang sometimes. . . buat ini tak betul, buat itu tak betul...

nak lucky pun tak boleh,... and some people just have all the luck beside them and they dont seem to see it. all they do is just tengok tengok and let it pass. be it good or bad.

Well, all i can say is... WORK hard on your part, never compare too much, and i am very sure everything will work well!!!!!!! JIa YOu!! Zai Jia You!!!

A day not to be forgotten....

Urppp!!!!!

I feel so fucking itchy!! haha.. as in itchy on my leg, as my shingles are heading towards recovery stage, and i have not been *gai* haoing, i think its really.. horrible.

I was in training for the whole day, whole morning. Hrmm... met a guy.. totally.. like whoa!!! ahaha.. good guy i must say.. cheerful and bublly.. over bubbly!! even got a smack on my butt from commenting! crazy fella!!! i think my friends would love him, a little sot sot him.. but should be a great guy nonetheless.....

then, erm... say, met a CIO of HSBC, totally down to earth and humble guy.. millionaire i could say.. freaking freaking humble. . . .im so gonna be at where he is ... but slightly faster...

Now, the most impressive night of all, so i thought, i was gonna go have tea with a friend of mine. But the fella not free... but i benefited in another way.. HOW ? hahaha

By going dinner with ROB!!

1) Scallop surrounded by Broccoli, ( muh favourite vegetable )
2) Fish Maw!
3) Steamed King Prawns!
4) Marmite King Prawns!
5) Steamed Tin Gai! Frog if u wanna know what is it
6) Bamboo Lala!! the biggest i have ever seen!!! as big as my palm!!!!!crazy!!
7) Sweetest, nicest steam PATIN fish.. Yummie.... lots of collagen!!!
Drumrolll........
8) Spider CRAB!!! in 2 flavours.. salted egg and steamed!! Gosh.... i only took a few, i was starting to feel nausea..
Dessert was DURIAN and watermelon.... and there. My dinner.

p/s i had my first HUTT of durian in 2 years... not too bad.. it was the Mao San Wong! =) and lots of watermelon of course.....

250 Post.

Im reaching there. the quarter of CEnTURION post....

I haven been able to do this for the past 3 days as i was just too busy tied to the training course i register and etc etc. when i came home it was already much pretty late...

I learnt a lot during the whole coaching thing, iut mayb expensive, which actually it is FUCKING expensive.. but i think its time to start something different. Im always open to ideas. I retain the old ones. but then venture into the new ones...

life is getting tougher as days goes by and my dream of being a millionaire is getting more visible. I am driven to reach there. Despite all the troubles or whatever sad or bad condition i will face.. here i will come. My million. Please wait for me and dont let me go.

OH yea..... Time to give up everything and Start everything again!!

Tsunami Again.. 11-03-11

A Gloomy Day in the morning.. Only the lembapness in the air... Good for those who wish to be in the bed whole day.. and bad for those who drag themselves out of the bed...

It was pretty much normal routine... Till its just routine. Then 2pm came the shocking yet choking news... JAPAN got hit double whammy.. the EarthQuake and TsuNami....

and to me, OMG.

2012 is approaching. haha. Well, on a more serious note, my condolences to the Japanese out there, im sorry that this has to befall your country. Learn from it, pick yourself and move on. Everything happens for a reason, whether you like it or not. At this point of time, no matter how different you are from any japanese, you are just one of us. One of the normal human being that is living on this earth. We pray for You. As you must be strong yourself.

I myself is tired. Till now. But i decided to treat myself... went for a lovely massage. totally nice. at least it gives my brain a good time to relax and recharge the memory.

Nevertheless.. i have to attend course tmr. and so long for now.

也许我太过天真，以为奇迹会发生~ ...我以后不要再那么笨就好了~ ♥

Had a looong day today, Getting everything done from here and there..

Went to Lunch with my Piew Jie, she's in trouble, i hope her the best, wish her get out the shit as trouble..
Went Pasar Malam, So long haven visit ! the feeling was so different.. so different.. 

Someone told me she believe Fate, I listen and kept quiet, hrmmn.. mayb i shuld also, but i know without any action, fate or not fate also bullshit. but then, not all happen the way u wish it happen..

Thinking Back, Maybe i was Naive, I Really Thought Miracles do Happen.. Now Looking Back, Next time i never want to be like that stupid then good enough lor..... It's always i thought,, i thought. now i thought.. 

I never was myself. Now i know why.

The Fact is, i dont give a Shit about U.

Just how you thought that given other people compliments they deserve, when the truth is. it was never worth it. neither deserve it.

Had a few conversation today, looks like despite of being at the most cautious mindset at all times, there is still flaw to different perception and interpretation of judging people. and HOW true. HOW true that turn out to be.

I am getting sick and tired of all this kind of SHIT. no one out there is fucking sincere. Everyone has their own agenda, with a strong intention to do betray, acting selfish, or even backstabbing. . or probably, doesnt even have a knack what are they doing and often confusing themselves and have no great idea what they have just accidentally say, or not chosen the right word to say. or even being contradicting where there is no fact or common sense at all. But nonetheless, like they always say. it is a DEMOCRACY world. everyone has their own mindset.

i have always defended what i think or perceive good, but now i realize there is no such thing as fairness, we are out for survival, and the game play is to destroy whoever it's in the path, with no mercy.

The truth will always only reveal if there is a relationship. if there is no, there is never a harmony. Putting everything aside, there is still true relationship, but nonetheless, rare. Its always about understanding, being *trust*worthy, honestly, all the beautiful yet weak words.

i never know when i will stumble again one that i can consider full sincere, or even truthful, where i could start a relationship, any relationship. because, i think i myself is changing, and the Fact is, i dont even give a SHIT about U or myself!

Enough is Enough. I think i should start planning my holidays again. Who want free holidays? my treat =0

oh btw,

Happy INTERNATIONAL WOMEN DAY!!!

ALL women should dress in PURPLE inner wear! PURPLE dress! and whatever its PURPLE!!

Thought For The Day

Never Feast too much on Pills and Medicine... It has side effects...

Gosh, how i wish that i don't need to write this. I have finished my medicine for my super SNAKE, now i can seriously feel the side effect of it.. sore legs and sore back.. SHIT!! i need my healthy legs and back back!!  To do diving, to run, to hope around. and most importantly to move forward.

Well, at least i could take into consolation that the migraine is getting lesser.. huhu. still hurts once in a while, but its still good...

My thought of the day... after thinking and thinking and thinking...  My thought are THINKING. Day THINKING.

Had a pretty E-resourceful day today.. STuck in the company whole day doing E-Learning. and i cant even fast forward or skip. learn about fraud, money laundering, solliciting, phising, whatever sing also can do... adhering to the rules and regulations... wahlauehz.... i think i lost quite a number of memory power there. But if i dont rememebr i wouldnt even mind!!

Best part of the day was i gotten a free travel bag which i think its really nice.. even tho its corporate bag and not an LV bag, a personal laptop from the company. err... wait.. rephrase.. COMPANY laptop. LoLx! hahaha... but it was nice. and i got some sounding for my dressing. says that i need to dress more Professionalist and not the young punk... ==.==' i think im still the young punk. Just a hidden young punk =)

Well, the day was only focused and the computer screen. . . .  And its finally ended.

By Giving, You help other people day Brighter. . .

Breath in Breath out...

Was dragging myself out of the bed this morning.. it was still dreadful. Awful. I touch the back of my head and
it still hurts, the inside of the brain still aching, i guess its the brain juice that is starting to flow... let it flow..
Look down on my leg N wishing that the scars will move away soon. The leg looks awful, i regain strength on the leg, but the joint still hurts... i didnt know SNAKE could hurt so much. . . even went to east and west doctor just to seek cure. No one could do it instantly. All they said was time that i need....

On the more bright side.. im @live! =)

Went to the office this am, jsut the normal routine that i do my job. It is just so complacent. I needed a change and the change has been thrown to me. For the past 4 years i was here. i have to admit, they treat me really well, gave me all the flexibility. Maybe too much. and its really time to clamp it down. Start focusing and not moving around too much. I made too much time. Too Much free time i took from them. Most of it to do things i love. To meet people i love. but yet also lost tons of things that i couldn't find anymore. Things that will never come again, or even cross path. But yet, i still believe, by GIVING, i will help make other people day brighter. even i do not get anything in return.

At this moment that i am writing, i am still feeling the throbbing pain, how i wish that it will just fade away and not keep bothering me.  Even swallowing Vitamins hurts. Baka!! i cant believe i need 2 cups water to swallow 6 pills where i could do it with half a cup last time. Jeeezzzz!!!

i believe, There is a TIME, where we will heed a certain call.

HSBC. a new start. a fresh start. Watch me GO!

7/3/11 continued ...

ohz, and not forgetting...

one of my GOALS..... ADVANCE PADI DIVING LICENSE!!

Go SIPADAN!!!!

The license must really fall into my hands by this year. I DONT CARE.

7/3/11

Judgment Day.

Urgghh... My head is still very muc hurts, the throbbing pain its constantly there. its so hard to shake it off. Please please move away...

Well, To Day i will end everything for the past few years. at least leave it and try to move on. It's always about moving forward. Isn't it.

I practically spend this 2 days in 1utama MPH book store. it was like my library. I just took a few books, went to the MRC lounge and started reading alone there. How often i can surprise myself that i could actually do that when it was last time, i will prolly choose to spend time with some other people, making other people happy. Putting effort in doing. Now that it seems. So far. I guess i have to walk a certain path before i could do that again.

Books now to me is like medicine to my soul. I wanna absorb as much knowledge i can in the books and start applying it. I think i wasted too much time. To some other ppl, i prolly had what i can say, unimaginable with what i have achieve this far. But to me, i think i am way behind of some people, and there is lots of catching up to do.

My body is starting to recover from the bad SNAKES! bad snakes i meant, really bad one, i am feeling healthier, which give me more reason that i shouldn't always stay up late at night doing nothing. All i needed was time management. I use to set apart a certain time for people i cared, love, enjoyed spending time with. used to. Mayb i will again in the future, but as at current moment, well, i dont know. GUess sometimes u really dont wanna put in effort anymore when things doesn't happen. Change for the better one. never regret. Only remember =)  I myself is turning into some1 i don't know. I'm just trying so hard to achieve something in my life. at least if i get a wife next time, i wouldn't want her to suffer. Sufferings are bad for health.

I had what i want now, at least i could say, free of debts,a few plans that are falling into places, but im still working towards that dream. The dream that i could give my love ones a better life.  i just need to manage my finances. Not that i have a lot. But i am always working towards that amount .. and to figure out ways to sustain it rather than just short term earnings.

Lovely day. i will say, full of activities, even tho i must admit it was half a day in MPH, and another half wasted having dinner and supper with friends from Kiara, DJ and i dont know who.

Good nite. "Yawn"

Memory Lapse

I cant believe i am writing this, seriously, i will try and revive everything i forgotten and i will write everything down here, what happened, what did not, and what did.

I went to the Clinic today, i wasn't feeling very well, my head was constantly throbbing with unnecessary headache. and i had some funny looking rash on my Thigh. It wasn't pleasant. I could only tell myself, I'm in trouble, and i need to consult a medical practitioner.

So i went to the DOCTOR. How glad, i was to see her, she explain a few things, put in in a very funny way of explaining, which i enjoyed a lot. .haha. but it wasnt all rosy, she told me that this infection will come and strike me back once in a while, and could result. in a memory lapse if its too severe. HOLY. she said sometimes you might not recall what happen. or who you know. you know you know the person, but you might find it hard to recall what happened. ahaha.. no SHIT! sounds like im in a movie, well, of course,
me being me, im sure that wont gonna happen. I wont let it happen and i am gonna be totally fine. or i hope i am.

So the doctor gave me an extremely high dose of antibiotics.. Uhuu.. this is bad, i'm losing my appetite and now she is giving me this. This will certainly hurts. my whole body was aching before i see her, now it aches more when i see the medicine prescribe to me.

Well, at least i LIVE to see another day! 

Feeling the world of pain

I will start writing back here.

Cant believe that i am starting right now.

I am in a fucking bad condition. What a sweet day to start writing again.. i'm in pain. Fuck.

i cant believe i'm actually battling against this virus.. urggh... i hope i win. or they say, i can go BYEBYE.
haha.. if i BYEBYE. then really BYEBYE.

Lets pray for now.. Amitabha, that i live long enough to feel the joy, to see the joy and to have joy.